June 16th, 2010
|01:40 am - truth. lies. absolution.|
My Master has been the predominant focus of my existence for the past many months now. I take a step back now and realize why I was so eager to let him consume me. A previous boyfriend is involved. What baffles me the most is that I was never intimate with him. Not on the levels Master and I have come to be intimate on.
Why does it hurt so much when I see my last boyfriend and his new fiancée so thrilled together? I should have nothing but happiness behind my eyes seeing them together, knowing they'll be married by this time next year...
All I see is a cloud of blurry nothingness from the tears welling in my eyes.
Now that I'm finally coping with the reality of things and sober long enough to THINK...I no longer fully wish to be as involved with Master as I once was.
When Master found me I was in shambles. A drunken reprobate about to lose my future, and all because I simply could not function properly after the breakup. The first breakup where I was the one dumped. I was the liability in that situation. I won't get into too much detail for the sake of how much pain I'm willing to relive right now, but let us just say that my newfound drunkenness coupled with his lack of communication and a long distance relationship did not sum up to anything positive.
When the opportunity to move on presented itself I clung desperately to it. I'm sure Master is aware that he is not the lone force that moved me under his heels so quickly and so willingly. He cares more for me now than he's like to admit and I'm sure he has an inkling as to why I was so needy with him.
With Master I had an opportunity to lose myself to ownership. My past didn't matter. All that mattered was my will to serve and what ends I needed to meet to achieve Master's required level of service.
I've come to grips with how unhealthy that is now. When I dote back on how exactly it was that I lost my virginity it leaves no room for argument on the subject. I was desperate and naive.
There is nothing I can do to rewrite the past. I can, however, move on and prove that with the Lord anything is possible.
I'm tired of crying or fighting tears. I wish for the source of my anguish to finally be removed.
I close my journal with these final words: live for the Lord as Jesus lived for us all, for no pain is greater than what he bore on the cross. Whatever it is that is keeping you from God LET IT GO. Hell is worth none of it. I love you all and Godbless. See you in heaven! ^_^
Current Location: unmade bed
Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: "Diving" 4 Strings
May 22nd, 2010
|01:02 am - summer. solstice.|
I find myself being ever-presently vulnerable with Master lately. Being home is a constant reminder of my inadequacies and insignificance in my biological father's eyes.
PAIN PAIN PAIN...
So far I've been told that I am not welcome here in this house foe the summer, that I'm nasty, a slut and a whore, that I'm a fuck up with nothing to show for myself, that I'm an ingratiate bitch, fuck me, fuck me, fuck me...Of course it's challenging for me to bridle my tongue and not try to fight for whatever dignity I have left when things like that are said to me by my own biological father. It's an oxymoron for me to say anything against the man, however, because Master would not have me any other way.
For Master I am his slut, his whore, his cum dumpster nasty fuck. I know these things, but with Master it is something positive and I have to hold on to that lest I lose my sanity trying to switch perspectives.
Master has been so patient with me during these times of our separation. I'm not the only person in the world suffering emotionally from something like this, and I won't be the last.
I love you so much Master. Thank you for being my crutch to lean on when I am feeling weak and worthless. It is because I am your everything that I find worth in myself. My only desire is to please you in every way...
Current Location: living room
Current Mood: listless
Current Music: "I Remember" Kaskade and Deadmau 5
May 8th, 2010
|03:09 pm - Summer of Separation|
It begins. The long months of distance between my benevolent Master and I. I miss him so much already and it's only been a week. Not even.
We have been keeping close contact via the telephone but that can only ever amount to so much when you are truly one with someone. Master is able to grin and bear it, and that alone makes me feel strong enough to endure this period of our lives together. Once we are reunited in August I will not be separating from him ever again. We are going to be living together, starting this fall...
I am so EXCITED!
I have never lived with a significant other before and I feel that I am ready. I trust Master with all of my heart mind body and soul. He would only take me in as a live in if I was willing and eager and I am all of that and more.
We have gotten so close these past few weeks and being apart is challenging, but I am remaining prayerful that everything will work out in the end. I love Master so much. Currently I am job searching and trying to save money for next semester and rent. If I keep myself busy all summer I won't have time to feel alone.
Current Location: piano room @ home
Current Music: "The Dream Within" Lara Fabian
April 24th, 2010
|04:04 am - It's the FEAR...|
Master and I have had another row of sorts...I'm so attached to him. Love as an adjective only scratches the surface of what I feel for him. Never in my life have I felt so close to anyone. We are united. I rejoice in his joy and lament when he feels pain. I'm still not sure if the connection works both ways. As of late the issue of one of his biggest kinks has been throwing off our dynamic.
Master is an extremely sexual being.
I knew this from the moment his deep set gaze met my own. He's got a powerful presence that often chills me to the bone, but more often than not set's me aflame. Master, you see, is not just a dominant in the bedroom, but in every facet of his life. From being around him I've noticed his lack of patience with being challenged. I've managed to circumnavigate this a few times, but only by his grace towards me. Women have a place in his mind, and that's under his authority. That's where I fit in, albeit somewhat loosely.
Recently the discussion of his desire to experience shared sexual liaisons has been coming up more often. I won't lie here, that both terrifies and hurts me. I know I wrote before about how disturbing it is in my mind; for a man to want to share his woman sexually. It baffles me to no end. There is a new attitude, however, to the issue in my mind. It's gotten to the point now where I no longer care about my own reservations or inhibitions. I just want Master to be pleased with me. The sting in his voice when I make him unhappy hurts so much, it suffocates my very soul. Whenever Master yells at me for my stubbornness my heart becomes cold as ice and his harsh reprimands rip through it causing it to shudder.
WHY AM I SO DISOBEDIENT?!!!
I really need to meditate on how much I love Master. Nothing else matters but his pleasure. Nothing. Especially not me.
Current Location: dorm room kitchen
Current Mood: disappointed
Current Music: "If I Could Fly" Ocean Lab
April 18th, 2010
Just when I start to feel that I can't be any luckier, Master's chivalrous nature proves me wrong again. We spent virtually the entire weekend together. HE returned from another concert venture Saturday morning (more on THAT later) but I was hungover from the previous evening so I did not get back with HIM until early in the afternoon. He took me to BJ's and then we walked to a nearby Petco to get some things for my rabbit Remington. Master paid for it all! My Mom had specifically loaded up my account so that I could get the rabbit his food and whatnot and Master told me to hold on to my money. When I reached inside my purse for my wallet as we approached the checkout counter he gave me this extremely stern look that froze me in my tracks. HE didn't have to do that...I always feel sort of guilty when someone else is paying for my food and I felt even guiltier when Master took care of my rabbit expenses. All the more reason for me to be a better slave focused solely on HIS needs...
We ran a few more errands that Saturday evening and then Master took me out for ice cream and to see Alice in Wonderland (the one with Johnny Depp). In my opinion the film was trippy. Master liked it and that's what counts the most, especially since it's what HE wanted to see. We spent the remainder of that night together cuddled up on his bed. I am well aware of the reason as to why we did not get intimate (I have a yeast infection that Master bought some treatment for but it takes three days). Still, it was nice to just be together and not get too crazy...haha...
This morning I woke up to the feeling of warm hands roving over my butt and thighs. I sighed contentedly and Master pulled my back flesh against him and began to play with my nipples. HIS touch was gentler than usual, and I could feel a heat pooling inside of me. My moans were short-lived, however. Master's erection pressed up against my buttocks and I could feel HIS strong hands maneuver me so that I was facing HIM. HIS right hand was already working the long shaft; pumping hurriedly up and down. I looked sleepily up into HIS eyes, and HIS gaze was intense as his left hand lowered the back of my head so that my mouth was over his cock. I worked HIM deep how I know HE likes, moaning with each thrust into the back of my throat. I did not come up for air or gag as often as usual, and I stopped my ministrations for a moment to smile at him proudly. He cupped my face gently in his hands and brought my lips to his, kissing me tenderly before whispering "Did I say you could stop?" as his grip on my face became tighter. I moaned "...n-no Master" and went back to what he wanted from me, the heat pooling in my belly intensifying. HE came quickly after that after roughly taking my throat for a while. I did not waste a drop. I licked my lips and smiled at him brilliantly. "Good morning Master!". HE smirked and softly replied "Good morning slave."
Master took me out to Cracker Barell (how do you spell barrell lol?) after our morning tryst and then we stopped by a few antique shops on the outside of town. I'm in my dorm now (BACK TO REALITY OH NO! Haha) and I have tons of studying to do but I thought I'd share...this song I'm listening to right now is OFF THE CHAIN by the way...
Current Location: dorm room
Current Mood: content
Current Music: "Leave the World Behind" Original Mix by Ingrosso, Laidback Luke ft. Deborah Cox
April 15th, 2010
|02:37 am - Adventures in the wonderland of Master and slave...|
Waiting by the roadside for Master to come pick me up never felt as long as it did a day ago. As I stood out there in the heat shielding my eyes from the harsh sunlight small beads of sweat kept forming on my forehead, from my anxiety or the humidity I do not know.
It had been exactly six days since I'd seen Master...
HE eventually did pull up by the sidewalk astride me and I could not help my heart beating a little faster nor the huge grin that took presence in my countenance. I hopped in the car and Master greeted me with a beautiful rose, freshly cut and surrounded by tiny white bulb blossoms. My spirit soared in that moment and I gushed my heartfelt thanks. He smiled his handsome smile and replied with a simple "You're welcome dear". I will never forget that for the rest of my life. That instance marks the first time a man has ever given me a red rose. I felt so loved lifting it to my nose delicately and taking in its sweet aroma. I'm going to press it and put it into my personal diary...
Our destination for the day was a remote field somewhere off a forest trail. I had no idea where we were headed specifically, mind, just that it was somewhere no one would be able to find us very easily...>.> It took us twenty or so minutes weaving between nature walk trails, over barbed wire fences, and across the dense undergrowth to make it to our destination. I had to hold my breath and pray to every God there could be towards the end because almost at the end of our journey there was this wooden bridge over a small creek to cross. The bridge was slightly embedded into the creek at one corner and it was solid, but at an awkward angle. Of course Master is adept when it comes to these types of things. I had just recently witnessed HIS litheness as he hopped the barbed fence (which I had trouble with >/////<). With a few quick movements Master maneuvered across the bridge with relative ease and then turned back and gestured for me to follow.
"Don't be afraid it's solid see?" I do not believe I would have attempted crossing at all if Masters voice had not been so comforting...I gasped and I yelped and I teetered from side to side but SOMEHOW I made it across that bridge. That was the most harrowing feat I have accomplished in my life.
The scene that awaited me just around a few more bends was simply breathtaking. Master had led me to one of the most expanse and beautiful clearings I had ever seen. The air was fresh, the breeze was swift, and the sun was at its peak in the bright blue sky...Master seemed to be reliving something as the clearing came into our view because he had the most nostalgic expression on his face.
He spread out a big wool blanket for us to picnic on and then took out our lunch: chicken salad croissant sandwiches, grapes, oysters with cheese and crackers, and dark chocolate over shortbread for dessert. He even broke out his families red wine for the occasion. I was so surprised! I ate slowly, savoring each delicacy as Master watched me eat. I was famished from the hike, but my body betrayed my hunger because it began to respond to Master's gaze. I locked eyes with Master and his vibrant eyes drew me in so powerfully. The atmosphere changed instantaneously from light and romantic to dark and sexy. I wanted him inside me so badly, it'd been to long since we parted. With shaky hands I set aside my plate and before I could blink our tongues were dancing, his lips colliding with mine. Both of us had disrobed upon arrival. I felt so free in my own skin as my back hit the wool blanket. I was wetter than I'd ever been. Sex with Master thus far had been amazing, but in that moment I'd never felt so needy, so hot with desire. He took me with rapid strokes and I cried out for him with each thrust. It was so good...I'm reveling in it even now as I write about it. I'd missed the taste of his love seed and he gave it to me quickly, re-edifying the fact that we had not been intimate in almost a week. I finished eating then, my desire assuaged for the moment as Master began to eat himself. Our intimacies did not end there for the afternoon...I opened up for him in ways my mind never thought possible, but my body knew what to do. I even liked it when Master had BOB (my vibrator) and HIMSELF inside me at the same time; both nether region holes included. Master was so pleased with my receptiveness to DP action. HE kept on repeating how happy he was that I enjoyed it and how pleased he was with how far I'd come and the improvements I'd made. It rained on our lovemaking at one point and I felt as if we were in a romantic movie. I love my Master so much, and he loves me back just the same.
After the picnic was over and we it back to the starting point of our hike I was exhausted. We visited with one of Master's old friends and then he started talking about taking me home. As HE was starting the drive towards my dorm on campus I gently reached my hand over HIS legs and rubbed him, teasing "Are you SURE you want to take me home?". I did not want to leave his side. Master's eyes changed and He turned the car around without a word. I had successfully bought more time with him. Even though I was sore from our romping in the clearing I let Master take me again at our favorite evening secluded spot. HE bent me over the hood of his car and we went at it for a while. I shuddered from the contrast of the cold night air with his warmth when he pulled out of me. Somehow after that we ended up sitting in the car just holding each other. Master really opened up to me then, exposing some of his deepest secrets and emotions. I comforted him and was there for him and I'm thrilled he spoke so easily to me about his past and how much I mean to him now in the present. I've never been this close to anyone in my life before, and Master and I continue each day to pull closer together. This is what love should always feel like.
I ended up staying the night at Master's place and waking up in his arms. It was a heavenly feeling seeing him next to me when I woke up and knowing it wasn't a dream. I spent the entire day with him after that, helping him run errands for his mother and doing odd jobs around the backyard garden. We made dinner together as well; fried chicken and mashed potatoes with broccoli. The man knows how to COOK! :P
All good things eventually come to an end unfortunately. I am back in my dorm facing the other side of my life again while Master is going off for a few days to handle some business. Needless to say I'm going to miss him dearly these next few days, but I know how to busy myself with my work and the gym. I won't give myself time to feel alone, because in reality Master is with me in every essence at all times. Heart mind body and soul, He is a part of my very existence and with Him I am whole.
Current Location: dorm room kitchen
Current Mood: thoughtful
Current Music: "If I Could Fly" Ocean Lab
April 12th, 2010
|10:38 pm - Master has returned!|
I'm filled with jubilee right now! Oh yes...he just called me a little bit ago telling me he made it back in town. I'm so nervous and my heart is beating so fast. Why? Well...I went to the gym every day last week and put a shock to my body. I wonder if he will notice any positive changes? It's painstakingly agonizing just sitting here waiting for him to call me back. I'm so impatient! XD
After not hearing his voice it's almost a shock to me how calm it makes me. Everything but him and what he wants melts away from me and I disassociate myself from the world; it's just Master and slave. How I stumbled upon such a perfect Master I never can fathom. I feel a fire burning inside me and nothing can stop the flames from overtaking my entire being now. The way Master's smooth voice u
Almost everything Master and I struggled over boundaries on I ended up enjoying...what does that say about our dynamic? He knows what's best for me and will never hurt me. I should have trusted him more from the beginning. I should have listened to him when he told me I am to be precious to him in every possible way. Needless to say I'm going to be more active now that Master and I are back in action. I may even try my hand at some more erotic prose...
Current Location: dorm room kitchen
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: "Waves of Change" Samantha James feat Kaskade
April 11th, 2010
|06:12 am - The dynamic continues to fester with distance...|
I want Master so badly right now. It's been a long week. He shall return within the next few days, as dictated by Master himself. The part of my soul that misses him has evolved into a more frustrated element. I'm doing everything to take away from his lack of being here but my body knows the truth. Every morning I wake up quivering from needing him. Master says he misses me so I am sure he is suffering from separation anxiety symptoms as well, though perhaps not as intense as my own. I shouldn't invalidate his emotions...it's wrong. I have this negative habit of making myself the emotional victim all the time.
The first step is acknowledging it.
Well, cheers to Master returning within the next few days! I can't wait to feel him up against me again. I belong beside him, astride him, around him...
Current Location: dorm room kitchen
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: "Baby" Justin Bieber
April 10th, 2010
|03:46 am - Missing Master...|
Master has been in Tampa for the past few days so I have not had much to elaborate on besides my loneliness...hopefully he will return to me this weekend but you never can tell with him. I understand that there is a lot of fetish activity in Tampa and Master has probably had ample opportunity to be with other women...I know it is not my place to be jealous or be apprehensive to such things but still the possible sting of betrayal remains. Master was fervent in making sure I knew he would tell me if ever there was another woman, but I hope that our dynamic never comes to that. Selfish as it may seem I do not want to share him.
Is that bad?
It's as though a piece of me is missing and where the empty space is there is an ever present ache. I am going insane trying to ignore it! Master I pray you return to me soon. Your weak little slave can only take so much more emptiness...
Current Location: dorm room kitchen
Current Mood: lonely
Current Music: "3" Britney Spears
April 5th, 2010
|12:53 am - Posting only for future reference...|
This is a huge issue that I can no longer ignore. If I don't make a decision soon Master will leave me forever.
Bondage and Sadomasochism (BDSM) – a Christian Perspective
I hope that as you read through this page, you will arrive at the same conclusion as I have concerning bondage, sadomasochism and their associated subcultures, i.e. that they are contrary to God's design for healthy living and healthy sexuality. God created us and gave us the wonderful gift of sex to be enjoyed in the intimate bond of marriage. God intended sex to be a loving, giving experience, as opposed to a selfish, lustful, or domineering experience. This page has been written primarily to Christians, but I encourage everyone to consider the points made.
Bondage: "A state of being bound usually by compulsion; servitude or subjugation to a controlling person or force" (Webster's Dictionary)
Domination: "supremacy or preeminence over another; exercise of mastery or preponderant influence" (Webster's Dictionary)
Masochism: "A sexual perversion characterized by pleasure in being subjected to pain or humiliation esp. by a love object; pleasure in being abused or dominated" (Webster's Dictionary)
Sadism: "A sexual perversion in which gratification is obtained by the infliction of physical or mental pain on others; delight in cruelty" (Webster's Dictionary)
Additionally, Encyclopedia Britannica says this: "The sadist, however, often seeks a victim who is not a masochist, as some of the sexual excitement derives from the victim's unwillingness. The level and extent of sadistic violence may vary considerably, from infliction of mild pain in otherwise harmless love play to extreme brutality, sometimes leading to serious injury or death. The satisfaction of the sadist may result not from inflicting actual physical pain but rather from the mental suffering of the victim. Sexual urges may limit the level of violence, but in some cases the aggressive impulse becomes predominant and the sadist progresses to more extreme expressions of his violent tendencies. Sadism may be a factor in some violent crimes, particularly rape and murder."
Sadomasochism: "The derivation of pleasure from the infliction of physical or mental pain either on others or on oneself" (Webster's Dictionary)
Submission: "An act of submitting to the authority or control of another" (Webster's Dictionary)
There are many ways in which people mix the above acts with sexuality. For simplicity of discussion, I will treat the above topics as one entity under the abbreviated acronym "BDSM." It is not my intent to explore each subculture of BDSM and make a judgment call on it. Rather, I will present principles of Christian living that are relevant to BDSM. You can then apply them to whatever area of BDSM you might be dealing with and decide for yourself if it is honoring to God.
Points about BDSM
1. BDSM degrades and dishonors God's temple: Our bodies are made in God's image and are intended to be vessels of worship (Romans 12:1-2; 1 Corinthians 6:12-20). When we mistreat someone's body, or allow our bodies to be mistreated, we degrade them and dishonor God. This is basically mocking the dignity of God's image. This dovetails with Satan's objectives of marring, abusing or destroying our bodies such that they cease to glorify God.
2. BDSM perverts sexual pleasure by mixing it with pain: Pleasure and pain are opposites, but BDSM attempts to bring them together for sexual gratification. Pain is a byproduct of sin (Genesis 3:16-17; Genesis 6:6) and was not intended to be part of creation. It will be eventually removed from creation by Jesus at the end of the age (Revelation 21:4).
God designed us to enjoy many different pleasures, including sex, food, work, art, music and sports. Our fallen nature tends to combine sinful acts with our outlets of pleasure. God does not take pleasure in evil - nor should we as his followers. David wrote, "You are not a God who takes pleasure in evil; with you the wicked cannot dwell." (Psalm 5:4 NIV) Consider what Solomon wrote: "A fool finds pleasure in evil conduct, but a man of understanding delights in wisdom" (Proverbs 10:23 NIV)
3. BDSM stifles the work of the Holy Spirit in our lives: When you consider the definitions of the words involved with BDSM and its associated acts, it's apparent that they are not based on love. Rather, they are based on malice, hate, cruelty, lust, selfishness, control, and domination. These attitudes are part of our sinful nature (Mark 7:21-23) and are directly opposed to the attitudes or "fruits" of the Holy Spirit. The fruits of the Holy Spirit are "love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control" (Galatians 5:22-23 NIV).
There are many scriptures that warn us not to have the attitudes featured in BDSM. For example, Paul wrote in Ephesians 4:31-32 NASB, "Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice. Be kind to one another, tender-hearted, forgiving each other, just as God in Christ also has forgiven you." (note: the definition of malice: "desire to see another suffer" (Webster's Dictionary). For more examples see the scriptures at the bottom of this page.
God commands us to walk in obedience to the Holy Spirit and not to gratify our fleshly cravings (Romans 13:12-13). Paul wrote: "Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the sinful nature with its passions and desires" (Galatians 5:24 NIV). When we ignore God's commands and pursue our sinful cravings, we stifle or "quench" the activity of the Holy Spirit in our lives (Ephesians 4:30).
4. BDSM corrupts God’s perfect plan for love and sex in marriage: Let's first look at the below scripture to best understand God’s intent for marriage relations:
22Wives, submit to your husbands as to the Lord. 23For the husband is the head of the wife as Christ is the head of the church, his body, of which he is the Savior. 24Now as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit to their husbands in everything. 25Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her 26to make her holy, cleansing her by the washing with water through the word, 27and to present her to himself as a radiant church, without stain or wrinkle or any other blemish, but holy and blameless. 28In this same way, husbands ought to love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself. 29After all, no one ever hated his own body, but he feeds and cares for it, just as Christ does the church-- Ephesians 5:22-29 NIV
Key ideas from the above scripture:
· Wives are to submit to their husbands as they do to God. Our submission to God does not involve punishment, wrath or abuse, because Jesus Christ bore all the punishment due to us on the cross (1 Peter 2:24; Romans 5:1). We have peace with God and submit to him in reverence and appreciation for the great sacrifice he made for us. A wife's submission carries no hint of sexual slavery, abuse, suffering or pain.
· The husband is the head of the wife as Christ is the head of the church. Jesus did not treat the church harshly, nor did he inflict pain for pleasure or seek to dominate them. Jesus loved the church so much that he sacrificed his own body to pay for our sins. His sacrifice was once and for all, eliminating any need for further pain and suffering on account of our sin (Hebrews 9:26; Hebrews 10:10). Following Christ's example, a husband has no business treating his wife harshly, inflicting pain for pleasure, dominating her, etc.. Also, the reverse is true as well - he has no business allowing his wife to do those acts to him. It simply would not be within the character of Christ.
. A wife should not mistreat her husband because this would be a perversion of the submission and respect that should characterize the wife's role. Paul likened the husband’s role to that of Christ and the wife’s role to that of the church. In Ephesians 5:22-24 he wrote, “22Wives, submit to your husbands as to the Lord. 23For the husband is the head of the wife as Christ is the head of the church, his body, of which he is the Savior. 24Now as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit to their husbands in everything.” The question we can ask ourselves is, “Did God intend the church to abuse Jesus through pain and domination?” No! The church's attitude toward Jesus is to be one of reverence, respect and love. Likewise, wives should treat their husbands with reverence, respect and love.
· We are to nurture our body and our spouse’s body. We worship God in many ways, but especially in how we treat our body (Romans 12:1-2; 1 Corinthians 6:12-20), which is made in God's image and is a temple of the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 3:16). It would be dishonoring to God for the wife to abuse her husband's body, and a husband is specifically commanded to cherish and nurture his wife’s body, as he would his own body (Ephesians 5:29-30). Nurturing, caring and feeding do not carry any connotation of bondage, pain or abuse.
5. BDSM brings you under the rule of a defeated enemy. Satan hates the fact that through our faith in Jesus Christ, we become co-heirs of God's kingdom (Romans 8:17). As adopted sons of God, we inherit authority and dominion over sin, Satan and his forces (see authority). Consequently, Satan seeks creative ways like BDSM to bring us back under his rule (through sin) and strip us of our "divine inheritance" rights.
God commands us clearly to not allow sin (or anything other than God) to be our master (Genesis 4:7). Also, Paul wrote: 12Therefore do not let sin reign in your mortal body so that you obey its evil desires. 13Do not offer the parts of your body to sin, as instruments of wickedness, but rather offer yourselves to God, as those who have been brought from death to life; and offer the parts of your body to him as instruments of righteousness. 14For sin shall not be your master, because you are not under law, but under grace. " 16Don't you know that when you offer yourselves to someone to obey him as slaves, you are slaves to the one whom you obey--whether you are slaves to sin, which leads to death, or to obedience, which leads to righteousness?" Romans 6:12-14,16 NIV
We must remember that Jesus surrendered his own body to be punished once and for all for our sin. His sacrifice purchased our freedom from the law of sin and death (Romans 8:1-2). To willingly place ourselves back into some form of bondage would be to make a mockery of the freedom Christ purchased for us. Paul wrote:
Stand fast therefore in the liberty by which Christ has made us free, and do not be entangled again with a yoke of bondage. Galatians 5:1 NKJV
If we allow ourselves to come under Satan's rule, we will be subjected to his "tools of domination," which he uses to keep people in slavery. Being subject to these tools is no fantasy! Here are some examples:
Torture: Matthew 18:32-35
Sickness: Luke 13:11, Acts 10:38
Affliction: Job 2:7,
Murder & death: John 8:44, John 10:10, Hebrews 2:14
Bondage/Slavery: Hebrews 2:14-15, Romans 6:19, 2 Timothy 2:26
6. BDSM can be progressive and may eventually lead to increasingly graphic fantasies (e.g. sex, death, rape, torture, mutilation, etc.). In an exclusive interview in the 1990's , the late serial killer Ted Bundy shared with Dr. James Dobson how pornography progressively helped him accelerate down the road to sadistic killing. Interestingly enough, BDSM was involved.
7. BDSM opens the door to perversion and confusion: People turn to perversions when they are not satisfied with the “normal” pathway of stimulation. In essence they are saying to God “your plan for my sexuality is not good enough…I want more gratification.” By doing this we open ourselves up to some very serious consequences. The apostle Paul captures some of those consequences in his letter to the church in Rome:
"24Therefore God gave them over in the sinful desires of their hearts to sexual impurity for the degrading of their bodies with one another. 25They exchanged the truth of God for a lie, and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creator--who is forever praised. Amen.
26Because of this, God gave them over to shameful lusts. Even their women exchanged natural relations for unnatural ones. 27In the same way the men also abandoned natural relations with women and were inflamed with lust for one another. Men committed indecent acts with other men, and received in themselves the due penalty for their perversion. 28Furthermore, since they did not think it worthwhile to retain the knowledge of God, he gave them over to a depraved mind, to do what ought not to be done. 29They have become filled with every kind of wickedness, evil, greed and depravity. They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit and malice. They are gossips, 30slanderers, God-haters, insolent, arrogant and boastful; they invent ways of doing evil; they disobey their parents; 31they are senseless, faithless, heartless, ruthless. " Romans 1:24-31 NIV
Here are the key aspects of the peoples’ behavior:
They degraded their bodies with one another
They worship created things instead of God (sexual fantasy is a form of worshipping the body)
They explored additional areas of perversion (homosexuality)
The consequences of such actions included:
They were given over to shameful lust and a depraved mind
They received a "due penalty" for their perversion
They were filled with every kind of wickedness, including malice and murder
They became heartless and ruthless
Pursuing BDSM will produce similar results, because it too involves degrading the body, worshipping something other than God (sex, body, pain, control, punishment, power, etc.), and exploration of other forms of perversion. Once we open ourselves up to the associated consequences, it becomes very difficult to regain a clear and right mind. However, recovery is possible with God's help.
Other verses addressing BDSM:
"Therefore let us keep the feast, not with old leaven, nor with the leaven of malice and wickedness, but with the unleavened bread of sincerity and truth" 1 Corinthians 5:8 NKJV
"But now you yourselves are to put off all these: anger, wrath, malice, blasphemy, filthy language out of your mouth." Colossians 3:8 NKJV
"3For we ourselves were also once foolish, disobedient, deceived, serving various lusts and pleasures, living in malice and envy, hateful and hating one another. 4But when the kindness and the love of God our Savior toward man appeared, 5not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to His mercy He saved us, through the washing of regeneration and renewing of the Holy Spirit" Titus 3:3-5 NKJV
"Therefore, rid yourselves of all malice and all deceit, hypocrisy, envy, and slander of every kind." 1 Peter 2:1 NIV
"Do not drag me away with the wicked, with those who do evil, who speak cordially with their neighbors but harbor malice in their hearts." Psalm 28:3 NIV
"21For from within, out of men's hearts, come evil thoughts, sexual immorality, theft, murder, adultery, 22greed, malice, deceit, lewdness, envy, slander, arrogance and folly. 23All these evils come from inside and make a man 'unclean.' " Mark 7:21-23 NIV
"But among you there must not be even a hint of sexual immorality, or of any kind of impurity, or of greed, because these are improper for God's holy people." Ephesians 5:3 NIV
"Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience." Colossians 3:12 NIV
"Do everything in love." 1 Corinthians 16:14 NIV
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